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Things were going fine for nearly the whole semester. I’m a fairly diligent student and almost never fail to attend a class or hand over my assignments on time. I like to have a lively discussion about different topics, but I always try to keep things civil and remain open-minded. I’m not sure the latter word applies to one of my professors, though.
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Without getting into the nitty-gritty, I’ll mention that we were branched out into a subdiscussion during class on political movements of the 60s, and how they correlate to today’s politically active groups. As the discussion went on, I felt more and more like the professor was getting increasingly partial and steering me towards accepting a specific viewpoint, which I resisted. After several minutes of this back-and-forth, we circled back to the main topic of the class, but you could cut the air with a knife afterward.
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I felt a bit uncomfortable for what seemed like a sparring match with my professor, but I sure as heck knew I’d kept myself within limits. The very next week, I had the chance to make sure that my professor saw otherwise. He didn’t waste time showing me there’s a new regime just for me. I got the brunt of the questions, including those that covered things from future chapters. It was obvious to me what he was doing, but it stopped being fun after the first 10 minutes. He was after my ass, dead serious.
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Then things got worse. I started getting the extra-difficult assignments, and even when I thought I pulled through quite fine, I’d get a C+ at best. I work damn hard on my essays and rarely get less than A minuses, so I knew something was up. I even did an experiment for shit and giggles and handed in an essay I did via a paper writing service. The professor’s verdict was a B-, and I know for a fact that paper was solid. I felt very tempted to tell him the truth and see the look on his smug face, but I don’t doubt this MF would’ve turned that against me as well.
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Can you present a case of biased treatment to the university’s board? I know there might be the option of switching professors, but the other one, while a nice fellow, isn’t as qualified. I’d rather try and work things out with Mr. Attitude and get through the class with valuable information by the end of it.

It’s Day 1 again. I finished my workday and went outside to plant some things near my mailbox (dirt therapy). TBH It was hard to not jump in the car and head to the store and pick up a bottle of wine.
You know what though, a bunch of neighbors kept walking by and we all had the sweetest visits. I would have missed it!!
It made me wonder about all my sober friends . . . what did you have time for today because we weren’t drinking/shopping for drinking etc?

I cannot decide between McMaster or UOttawa for Software Engineering. I have free choice at McMaster. I would love any insights, stories, or adive, but please say why and back it up, not just "Mac eng gud" I know it is higher ranked, but software is quite a different eng experience compared to other specializations. I made a list so you can see what's important to me.
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McMaster
Pros:
- Beautiful, modern campus that is compact (I don't have a car)
- 1.5 hours away from home
- Great research/team opportunities
- Academically and engineering driven university
- Some (albeit few) electives
- Summer after first year is free to travel
- Better residences
- $2000 in scholarship money per year (grade based)
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Cons:
- Hamilton < Ottawa
- Not as much support for co-op
- CS courses are behind the times? (not sure about this now)
- Expensive mandatory meal plan (I love to cook)
- Food seems to be worse (only eaten on campus once, it was okay but I've seen the raw chicken sandwich on McMaster subreddit)
- Right off highway, seems hard to get to Toronto
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UOttawa
Pros:
- Ottawa! I love the city
- WAY more job opportunities (government, banks, etc)
- Good co-op support
- Some team opportunities
- Co-op begins after first year (good experience early)
- $3000 in scholarship for first year (not renewable)
- Close to Quebec (I love skiing)
- Bigger city, more restaurants (I love food)
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Cons:
- I do not like the layout of campus and it seems spread out and a little unkempt
- First-come first-serve residence application and I am behind as I cannot decide
- I do not have car and many residences are off-campus and Ottawa winters are FREEZING
- 4.5 hours drive from home, train is expensive
- Not as many engineering students
- No electives (I like psych and english too, I want to have some easier, non-math courses first year while I get settled)
- Many residences only have one kitchen for whole building; Mac has kitchens on each floor
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It's trouble in paradise right now; I know both universities are great and it's down to what I make of my experience. However, I want to know reddit's thoughts, and typing this list out helped me quantify my decision better. I hope this post can help others in a similar boat to me.

I’ve been a vegetarian for nearly 20 years. I started when I was a tween. I have no idea how to cook meat.
My elderly cat has IBD/lymphoma. I’d say she’s basically in hospice. She’s never been a big fan of wet food. However, recently my brother brought some chicken wings to my house. My cat did something I’ve never seen; she got on the kitchen table, got a wing out from the container, threw it on the floor, and absolutely demolished it. (I saw her on the table but did not think she’d ever be able to get to the wings, I found the evidence in the morning. No bones were consumed.)
I’ve decided to start boiling chicken breasts for her. I’ve read to boil it for 12-15 minutes, but it honestly feels too long for the small amount of small pieces I’m cooking. The first time I tried 14 minutes and it was rubbery. I tried 10 minutes for about 12 oz of chicken breast strips and it seems pretty okay.
I’m actually a pretty good cook otherwise! I am very much a visual cook. I’d appreciate any tips you have to determine when it’s cooked through but not overdone. I know it shouldn’t be pink inside, but what can I do to assess while it’s still in the pot? For example, when pasta is cooked it is bendy, but when it’s overdone it is limp. Or a potato is cooked through when a fork goes through easily.
Also, any storage/reheat advice would be great! My mom told me to add some of the pot water to the container to keep it from drying out. I’m a person who goes to the grocery store frequently, so I’d rather buy small amounts to cook and store in the fridge, instead of cooking in bulk and storing in the freezer. Thank you!

Like literally, everything no w is dog-whistle for pedophiles, they want to steal your children, make them gay and later eat them alive. In that order. I gonna bet, soon will start literal witchhunting for those who was reported to be seen with child. Remember how DiCaprio was booed for talking with girl at baseball match or other place? Whole pizza-gate shit or magic fluid from kids that Hollywood's stars drink for eternal youth? Too much conspiracy in a short period of time, huh? And I didn't mention Twitter where literally everyone is fan of Child Po or is making Child Po, rn
But this results in second part of my complaint. Children are massively used in propaganda. "Oh, think about children, these gay/priests will groom your children, go to our political spectrum to protect them, here is the statistic that says that every second gay/priest is pedophile. But I don't agitate, just sharing information."
Every time when in some authoritarian shithole someone proposes death penalty to pedophiles and there are people cheering for this I only think: "Don't this mfs realize that this will be harnessed and abused by government to make this authoritarian shithole even more shittier?"
The most disgusting people beat in the largest auditory in their weakest point: in parents and their parental care of children. Not even their children, they know how previous kids are and want to protect other kids too.
So yeah, my point is: in near future there will be witchhunting for those who act like pedophile (bonus points from me for the most blurred criteria), but it will be just a political instrument to remove important figures from political playfield and those who will promise to protect kids more will get more votes.
(I will also be the devil's advocate, but it SEEMS to me that it is drawn(!!!) porn with children at least forces real pedophiles not to go outside for real children. Also, if you like lolicon hentai it doesn't make you a pedophile, like playing CoD doesn't make you a war-criminal. Yes, you're a pedo for liking lolicon only because characters there look like kids)
And now, I better call Saul.

Hey guys. Seems like people here understand what it's like to be lonely. And I'm there too
I need to say I have completely no one near me... Like absolutely no one! There are people of course I talk to, but it's only because I'm forced to talk to them, and it's worse than if I was somewhere in a deep forest alone... Other than that absolutely no one I could call and just talk. My contacts list in the phone is almost empty and the people that are in there I'd rather never known. But it is what it is.. And since I've known myself I never had actual friends I enjoyed a company with... For some time in my life I thought I hate people and I'm happy alone, and honestly I truly was kinda happy then, but in the end no, it's very painful. I've met some people online and they are the only people I love and care about so much. But eventually they are not even my real friends. I don't know their numbers, can't call, can't meet, they live in other countries, the only time I can say something to them is sometimes when they are online and even that should be rare. I can't talk to them too often, I'm not a close friend to them, they are not talking me seriously, even if helping so much. And it's really painful to realize. It comes down to the point that I feel physical pain inside of me, in the chest, and in the throat.. Staying alive becomes too hard...

Here's something you probably haven't seen before, the remains of the Borodin can actually be found in game at the end of mission 24, at least in the Dreamcast version. At the end of the mission when instructed to land, instead position yourself on top of the Koenig towards its front and aim your crosshair directly at the left edge of Jupiter, then fly straight for (no joke) like 20-25 minutes. Eventually WAY off in the distance, around 4-5000k at least, the Borodin was visible to me and could be approached.
Normally the wreck is only visible for a few frames during the end of the cutscene of it being torpedoed by the Yamato, but this gives a unique chance to see and explore it yourself. The wreckage of the Borodin Section that you can destroy earlier in the mission is also present in the same spot, though this can be easily seen through normal gameplay. A few interesting things I noted while attempting this:
-After 10-15 minutes of flight time (at max speed in the Shroud mind you), Jupiter warps to a new position while increasing in size, and changing in lighting to reflect its new position. The position it moves to seems to be accurately reflected by the direction you're flying, e.g. when flying straight at it, it won't move but simply increase in size, if very close already and flying towards it, it will move behind you eventually, etc. If you continue to fly for another 10-15, it will once again change its size/position. Flying far enough towards the left/right of Jupiter changes which side is actually lit. Altogether I've been able to see at least 6 different models/renders for Jupiter in just this mission alone, when typically you'll only ever see 3 when playing 'normally'. I have no idea if the same model is reused or just scaled up/down though.
-The skybox itself doesn't change, which combined with the visible polygons and pixilation on Jupiter implies that planetary bodies are indeed physical objects in game that are simply rendered at a fixed distance at all times, then moved around depending on the player's position to convey distance and movement when jumping/warping.
-Near the Borodin wreck was also a stationary Nanny, as well as Hawkeye and some Tempests from one of the other allied squadrons in this mission flying past very slowly. I believe it was just chance I ended up encountering them here, as after following them for 10+ minutes the hadn't changed course or speed at all. All of these ships were invincible as well.
-Being that these other ships were present and either doing nothing or flying with the most basic AI, it seems that during at least this mission, though you could safely assume all others as well, that any ships that appear in a mission are loaded SOMEWHERE at all times. It's possible they're being rendered as well, but at such massive distances it would be impossible to see. When other ships are needed (either you jumping to them or them jumping to you), it can be assumed you or them actually ARE being moved an extremely far distance to each other's location, which would explain why planetary bodies change their models after flying extremely far distances.
-Least excitingly, the in game mission timer can't exceed 59:59, it will simply roll over to 00:00 instead. No mission in the game would ever take remotely close to this long, so it's unlikely one would ever observe this.
If you end up experimenting with this yourself, I'd personally recommend an emulator with a speed up function of some kind, this would be incredibly unfeasible at normal speeds.
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From 18yo to 20y i was military in the french army. Before i graduated in graphic design.
My father is an old military and was happy to see me in the army. In 2023 i decided to quit army to start a new life, focusing on computer science, studying japanese, going to a master degree in computer science. Now he hates me and doesn't talk to me anymore. He said a lot of bad things like "i'm ashamed to have a son", "you will never be a true man" blah blah blah.
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So i'm 20yo now (21 in september) and i'm on my own. I'm trying to work in restaurants, breweries etc to pay my studies. I'm living with my savings.
Please if you are a parent, do not abandon your child because he wants to try something else. Guide him towards his journey. Studying is vital and your child NEEDS your support, especially in a world where your diplomas shape an important part of your life. Do not act like an irrelevant m*ngol, life is so short and we have tons of things to do.

Looking for some tips on negotiating with United Airlines after their partners Air Canada cancelled my upcoming flight.
I booked directly on United using points (85k total). I scored a pretty good business class deal for my return trip, which is operated by Air Canada. Unfortunately, Air Canada just cancelled that leg, and I believe they cancelled this route entirely from their operations. A United customer service rep called me to help me rebook, and they only have one flight that departs that location daily, and this flight is operated by United. Before they rebooked me, I asked them to confirm that this new ticket would also be business class. They said no, it was just economy, and elaborated that they did have business seats available but at nearly 155k miles MORE than my entire round trip already booked. The agent continued to tell me that even though my original ticket was for business class, because it was operated/cancelled by Air Canada there is nothing they can do and that if I wanted the business seat, I'd have to pay the difference.
It's a really long flight leaving at 1:30am, so business class is pretty essential to me at this point. My thinking is that because they are all partner airlines, and because the airline cancelled the flight (and route entirely), they should honor my original fare and rebook me on the same fare class, even if it is at a "loss" to them.
I would appreciate any insight and tips on negotiating this situation.

So I'm f21. I have a mom and a dad obviously and 2 sisters in HS. I live at home during the summer. Because I'm in college. And i don’t work much so I'm here alot. My parents both work at public schools so they're busy everyday. Basically my whole life they've been very mean to me. my parents are always in a bad mood. And always tired. They never talk to me, ask me how I am or how my day was. They get really annoyed when I hangout with friends or go to the mall restaurants etc. They hate all my interests like for example whenever i play music they tell me turn it off and always make a comment.
Mind you i do all my chores and i NEVER talk back to them. Recently I've been super depressed. I've been having really bad thoughts.
I gained a little weight since the winter and it's making me go crazy. I have no motivation to workout. I feel like my life is meaningless. I also hate my past. In high school i was such a whore and a bad kid and i feel like my parents will always hate me for who i was.
Also whenever i talk to people i knew in high school they always bring up my high school past. I hate who I used to be so much it eats at me all day everyday. Thats the main reason for my depression. I feel so worthless all the time. I want to disappear...run away or something.
PLEASE don't comment anything mean I'm just here to vent....

If you think business is about PowerPoint presentations, networking events, or buzzwords like 'synergy', think again. Strip away the noise and what you're left with is this raw, unfiltered truth: business is a beast that feeds on money. It’s the blood, sweat, and tears you pour in, hoping that when the dust settles, you'll find yourself standing on a pile of cash.
Visualize it like a relentless marathon, a race that never ends. It's the power of your investment pushing you forward, each dollar thrown in the mix acting like an extra dose of fuel, driving you towards the finish line. This game is a brutal test of endurance, strength, and strategic maneuvering.
Or better yet, imagine it as a ruthless chess game. Every move you make, each piece you sacrifice, is a strategic decision to outwit your opponent and protect your king - your profit. You play the game, take the hits, and keep moving forward, always eyeing that end goal - to end up with more money than you started with.
The problem with most businesses these days is that you don't understand the simple laws in the universe that we live in.
MONEY
ATTENTION
DEMAND
SUPPLY
FLOW
LISTEN UP! Business IS money. Period. If you're not hauling in that sweet green, then WHY ARE YOU EVEN PLAYING?
FLASHBACK: 4th grade. I'm just a kid walking into school when I see this game, Bakugan, taking the playground by storm. Intrigued, I get in on the action, buying 4 Bakugans for a cool $5.
Then, BAM! A kid approaches me and lays down $2.5 for ONE of my Bakugans. That's HALF my initial investment back, with one single sale!
There it was - MONEY IN. The first key was mine, and let me tell you, it was a thrill like no other.
Smelling the sweet scent of success and spotting the demand, I dove deeper. I found a wholesale deal and snagged 14 Bakugans for a mere $8. It was GAME ON.
I was about to shake up the school like never before. I brought in Bakugans that no one had even seen before. I had them gaping, I had them wanting. I created a STIR, and boy, did that pay off.
Just like that, I had the other 4 keys to success snug in my pocket. Money flowed in as naturally as water down a river. The symphony of a successful business was playing loud and clear, with me as the maestro.
THAT'S the power of understanding BUSINESS IS MONEY! NOTHING MORE, NOTHING LESS.
LISTEN UP! I'm about to give you the ULTIMATE guide to business success. No fluff, no jargon, just plain, simple FACTS.
We live in a world where social media has turned business into a game ANYONE can play. So stop wracking your brain and making it harder than it has to be.
The recipe to business success is literally at your FINGERTIPS. All you need is to follow the road of 123 6 9:
1 - MONEY IN.
2 - DEMAND.
3 - SUPPLY.
6 - ATTENTION.
9 - FLOW.
Get it? That's your roadmap to DOMINATION. It's simple. It's straightforward. It's foolproof.
Remember this: The first four elements can dance around any order. You could start with ATTENTION as your number 1, SUPPLY as your number 2, DEMAND as your number 3, and MONEY IN as your 6. But remember - FLOW is always 9. It's the grand finale, the thunderous climax.
These four elements are your building blocks. Forget about the perfect logo, or the next big thing. These things are nice, but they don't guarantee success. It's the fusion of these four elements that creates the FLOW, the rhythm of a successful business.
So, ARM yourself with these elements. MOLD them into your strategy. This is your golden ticket.
I can already see those comments coming in. "Oh wow, Einstein, nice discovery, we already knew this."
Well, let me hit you with a little wisdom from the man himself, Albert Einstein: "Any fool can know. The point is to understand."
DON'T BE THAT FOOL! UNDERSTAND the simple truth of business. There's ALWAYS demand, there's ALWAYS supply, and they're waiting for YOU. Find them, connect them, and that's MONEY IN. From there, getting ATTENTION is a breeze. Pay an influencer, start an ad campaign, you name it.
Sure, it takes a dose of smarts and creativity to play the elements into a harmonious symphony. But let me tell you this: EVERYONE can play their own tune that gets rewarded with the sweet sound of cash clinking.
OPEN YOUR EYES! Understand that business and money are EVERYWHERE. At the restaurant, at the party, even when you're scrolling TikTok.
Business is an ART, and like any art, it takes practice. It's a symphony that needs its conductor. And just like any skill, it CAN BE CONQUERED.
This world we live in is FULL of challenges. But every challenge is an opportunity. Look at the gym - anyone who hits it with dedication and good flow can sculpt a great body, no matter how skinny or fat they start out.
BUSINESS IS THE SAME. So get out there, face those challenges, POUND the pavement, SWEAT the small stuff, GRIND till you reach the top. This is YOUR game to win, and the world is your arena. Now, MAKE IT HAPPEN
WAKE UP, PEOPLE! This is your BLUEPRINT to business. This is your foundation, your starting point to build an EMPIRE. Yeah, it'll always be a challenge, but the BIGGEST challenge? It's starting a business and wasting time on things that just DON'T MATTER.
FOCUS on these 4 keys when you're starting your journey. If you're already knee-deep and things aren't looking up, TAKE A STEP BACK. Look at your business through the lens of these 4 keys. What are you neglecting?
Now, I'm not just here to dish out advice and leave you hanging. I'm here to HELP. If you're struggling with your business or figuring out how to work these keys, I'm OPEN for discussion and ready to assist.
But let's get one thing straight: I'm here for those who are SERIOUS. For those ready to CHANGE THEIR LIVES, learn the art of business, and willing to put in the HARD WORK and GRIT to make it happen.
Are you one of them? If you are, then let's get down to business and MAKE. THINGS. HAPPEN!

I’m in Vegas for a week altogether for the Stanley Cup final. I’ve never been to Vegas. I don’t drink and I don’t gamble, uh oh, haha. But I am staying near T Mobile arena and love Indian, Middle Eastern, and Asian food. In general, love checking out the local food scene.
Would love your recommendations on what dishes I have to try, what restaurants I need to check out, and any other suggestions.
Thanks. 💪🙏

One of my favorite tropes in horror is when, near the end of the novel, a character decides to sacrifice their life to stop the threat or save their friends/community. I like it better in horror than in other genres, because the threat is usually more horrible and the sacrifice greater, which makes it more heroic. Can you recommend me some novels where this happens?
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I do not like it when a character tries to do this and it doesn't work. It always seems super mean on the part of the author (which is a totally valid thing for a horror author to be, I just don't like reading it.)

I'm currently contemplating cutting my parents off for a bit and I'm struggling with the guilt I'm feeling around doing it.
Gonna give background bc reddit is anonymous so buckle up:
I was sexually abused by my older sibling from the ages of 10-12. It stopped because at 12 I told my mum, not really understanding what was happening, but knowing it shouldn't be.
My parents gave me a choice then about what I wanted to do: go to the police or have us both go to therapy and move on. I honestly didn't understand why they were both so upset at the time and I didn't want anyone to get in trouble so I said the therapy option. We both had 2 sessions and it wasn't mentioned again for several years.
I never processed what happened to me as a child or how I felt in that, I managed to push down the memories with self harming and pinching myself, to the point I don't have a clear recollection of those 2 years of my life anymore. I refused to acknowledge it to my friends and it was never mentioned within the family until I was 16.
The only reason I mentioned it at 16 was because I had a meltdown after hearing my brother playing his guitar really loudly, by that point I had developed musical "hallucinations" of faint guitar playing even when he wasn't there which I now understand to be flashbacks. I went in and told him to turn it down as I was becoming increasingly agitated (I also have autism & ADHD) he laughed at me and told me to fuck off. Usually this happens and I'd just leave, but for some reason in that moment I flipped out and started screaming that he ruined my life and he just laughed and I lost it, I tried to strangle him with his guitar whilst screaming that I hate him until my dad came in and physically dragged me off him, taking me outside. I was inconsolable and asked my parents to kick him out, they obviously said no, so I left to go stay with friends. This was the first time we acknowledged this in 4 years.
Once I had let this out I confided in my CAMHS (child mental health) worker about the trauma, the musical hallucinations, the self harm and the fact I wanted to not live. She got me in touch with social and then youth services to help me find somewhere else to live.
My parents were annoyed by this decision of me to leave, but refused to have my brother to move out, so I was placed into a homeless hostel for my own protection and peace of mind. They maintain to this day that I was never kicked out and chose to leave off my own accord.
I stayed there for about 4 months, it was a horrible dangerous place for a 16 year old quiet nerdy kid, I quickly grew hostile and developed a drug problem for a while. Then my brother moved out so I returned home to live with my parents.
Around this time my mother's alcoholism, pill dependencies and mental health issues also really began to intensify, but I did end up staying there for just shy of 2 years. I was no longer the sweet top of class nerdy kid and was now a college dropout, with severe depression. My mum would routinely scream abuse at me whilst blackout drunk also. Still I was determined to fix things so at 18 I re-enrolled in college to finally get my A Levels despite my dad's anger about this (he wanted me to work and pay rent) and I stopped using the drugs I was on. Life was starting to slowly get back on track.
Until about 2 months later, a week or so after I turned 19 when my parents informed me my brother had fucked up his life again and was moving home in 4 days.
I pled and protested with my parents that 4 days does not give me time to find somewhere else to live, they got angry at me for dredging up the past and being unfair on them and my sibling. My sibling also sent me abusive messages calling me names because I was making them feel bad.
So with no other real choice I found myself homeless and sofa surfing, sleeping with guys for places to stay etc, until I made it up the waitlist for the local YMCA hostel. My mates that I stayed with for most of it lived over 20 miles away so I was unable to get to college and flunked my A levels. I was kicked out of college shortly after I moved into the YMCA.
My family eventually "forgave" me for my behaviour and got back on speaking terms. All the while I'm living in hostels & unsafe situations. The next 5 or so years are a traumatic mess to be honest, I ended up an alchoholic with multiple suicide attempts, so much trauma, an eating disorder, further traumas and assaults by the unsafe people I lived with and an apathetic attitude towards living. My mother also was a big drain on me over that time, exhibited narcissistic behaviours, triggered me with food and on one holiday scratched herself up and tried to convince me I did it while she was drunk, I actually did cut her off for 3 months after this till we both got sober, but reconnected with her due to pressure from my dad.
Eventually in 2021 when I was 25, after a pretty serious suicide attempt and psychiatric admission I realised I was an alcoholic and joined AA and there I started to get well, for the first time in my life.
AA really saved me from myself and helped me get my life back on track, at this point I had my own place and a decent job and started trying to make something of myself and be a better person, which has been working well, but the one thing I never addressed in any of that was the trauma.
I still had to see my brother throughout the years due to parental pressure and as such had sort of siphoned off my trauma and had a disconnect to it and I thought that was working.
Unfortunately earlier this year I spiralled into a major depressive episode, I remained sober, but even the best of programs couldn't hold the suicidal ideation at bay. I ended up in a psych ward this time for 5 weeks. It was terrifying to be in a place where my life was on track, yet I still felt so disgusting and hopeless I didn't want to live. Although I still wasn't fully ready to admit that my trauma is what brought me that point. Despite daily flashbacks, self harming behaviours and nightmares of the abuse where I was at fault. I had it so compartmentalised and was keen to look for any other cause other than that.
My dad came to visit me after I'd been there about 2 weeks and informed me that my brother isn't doing well and I need to make more of an effort to see him. For the first time in my life I attempted to put a boundary in place and said that actually I don't think I should be seeing him ever again. Dad asked me "Is this because of the stuff that happened when you were kids?" And I responded "Do you mean the reason I keep ending up in places like this, no matter what I do?" And that was the first time I ever verbally acknowledged that this trauma was at the route of everything.
We spoke at length for several hours, my dad explaining that they always chose him because I'm capable while my sibling is a fuck up. I said I'm not coping. I'm literally in a psych ward? He said that he put me on a life raft while he helped my sibling and I said you didn't put me on a life raft, I went to a fucking YMCA. After that he heard me for the first time and semi acknowledged that they'd made some wrong moves and said he'd speak to mum about what to do moving forward so I don't have to see my brother again and can finally unpack this immense trauma in therapy.
That conversation opened the flood gates while I was in hospital and I was diagnosed by my psychiatrist with Complex-PTSD and assigned a trauma therapist. I was absolutely broken having finally admitted the guilt and shame I've felt my whole life, but at the same time felt some hope, that I can finally move on.
Until a week or so later when I spoke to my mum and mentioned the conversation with my dad, she said he had never spoken to her. She seemed uncomfortable and bored when I spoke about uow it has affected me and asked how it would make my sibling feel if I stopped seeing him. When I relayed it explaining how dad finally started to acknowledge how difficult it has been when they chose my brother over me, she stopped me and angrily/defensively stated "I have to stop you there. I person have NEVER chosen anyone over anyone." At this point I shut down. I ended the call and fell into a deeper depression hole that the nurses took weeks to pull me out of.
A few days before my release I saw my dad and I brought up the situation asking what's happening with it and he and mum had any conclusions around me not having to see sibling and he snapped and dismissively said "What do you expect me to do about it? I think the best thing is if you just move on and not dwell on stuff." Again I shut down and once again the batton was passed back to me to hold.
See that's what I've been doing my entire life. Carrying it so my family don't get upset, excusing my parents, excusing my sibling, justifying them. I've carried this burden, the blame, the self hatred and it's nearly killed me so many times. I just don't want to do it anymore. To carry it for them.
I got out 3 weeks ago and have slowly been returning to life, my parents barely contacted me for a week after I got out and I was supposed to be putting inplace boundaries, but felt too bad/missed them too much. They haven't asked how I am or how I'm feeling, because they don't want my answer. My mum ended up booking this weekend away just the two of us, but I ended up feeling this overwhelming sense that I shouldn't be going away with her, especially whilst I'm barely well again and I said I'm not ready for an overnight. Naturally I've got the usual silent treatment from her. I just feel so guilty, but again it's brought up all of this.
It's like my gut is screaming at me CUT THEM OFF, but I'm scared and I love them, even if they are toxic. I'm hesitant to unpick in therapy and scared I'm just going to go back to denial. Every person I've spoken to has suggested I cut them off for at least a few months, just while I focus on therapy and finally processing the trauma. I'm just so scared to do this. I want my parents around and I want them to love me, but they just can't do that in the way I need and I'm really scared of hurting them.
At the same time I know I NEED to put myself first and work through this, I think I need to let go with love, just for a bit.
Sorry this ended up being miles longer than expected, if anyone's read to the end of this misery, do you have any advice or words of encouragement, or alternatively if I'm being unreasonable please let me know. I just want to get this right, because right now I'm just sick of hurting.

So I'm a f21. I have a mom and a dad obviously and 2 sisters in HS. I live at home during the summer. Because I'm in college. And i don’t work much so I'm here alot. My parents both work at public schools so they're busy everyday. Basically my whole life they've been very mean to me. my parents are always in a bad mood. And always tired. They never talk to me, ask me how I am or how my day was. They get really annoyed when I hangout with friends or go to the mall restaurants etc. They hate all my interests like for example whenever i play music they tell me turn it off and always make a comment.
Mind you i do all my chores and i NEVER talk back to them. Recently I've been super depressed. I've been having really bad thoughts.
I gained a little weight since the winter and it's making me go crazy. I have no motivation to workout. I feel like my life is meaningless. I also hate my past. In high school i was such a whore and a bad kid and i feel like my parents will always hate me for who i was.
Also whenever i talk to people i knew in high school they always bring up my high school past. I hate who I used to be so much it eats at me all day everyday. Thats the main reason for my depression.
PLEASE don't comment anything mean I'm just here to vent....

Okay, full disclosure: I'm awful at writing these. I'm just gonna take my best shot to describe who I am and what I'm looking for, but I'm definitely better at conversations than bios.
I'll start with a little about myself. I'm 23 and recently moved near the DC area to start my first job (in AI research) out of college. This came with way more responsibilities than I was ready for, but I've finally got a half decent grasp of being an "adult". Thus, I figured it's about time I take the next step in my life and try to meet someone special to share it with. Physically, I'm 5'8 with an average build and dark brown hair. In terms of hobbies, I absolutely love playing board games. In fact, I attend a board game club three times a week and have a fairly sizable collection. For anyone familiar (or interested in) hobby board gaming, my personal favorites are Lisboa and Ark Nova. Besides board games, I also play video games, go hiking, and travel whenever I get the opportunity. In fact, I'm writing this post from a hotel room in Portugal. Lastly, I really enjoy reading comics and watching movies or TV shows. I have aphantasia which means I can't visualize anything in my mind's eye, so these mediums are pretty much a necessity for me to appreciate stories. Lastly, to avoid any future dealbreakers, I'll also add that I drink only socially, never smoke, am apolitical and agnostic, and am fully vaccinated.
Okay that might have been more writing about myself than I've done in my whole life. So let's switch topics and talk about you. Firstly, you're very great to have made it this far into my wall of text! Additionally, I definitely prefer people somewhat local to my area, but I'm open to meeting people from anywhere in the US. I'm not picky about physical appearance, but I definitely want someone who either shares or is open to exploring my interests and hobbies. Lastly, my love language is quality time, so I'm interested in someone who wants to hang out together somewhat often.
If you're still reading, please don't hesitate to reach out via DM or chat. If you're struggling to start the conversation (like I was with this post) send over three unique facts about you. I'll even sweeten the pot and reply with pet pictures for each one!

Okay, full disclosure: I'm awful at writing these. I'm just gonna take my best shot to describe who I am and what I'm looking for, but I'm definitely better at conversations than bios.
I'll start with a little about myself. I'm 23 and recently moved near the DC area to start my first job (in AI research) out of college. This came with way more responsibilities than I was ready for, but I've finally got a half decent grasp of being an "adult". Thus, I figured it's about time I take the next step in my life and try to meet someone special to share it with. Physically, I'm 5'8 with an average build and dark brown hair. In terms of hobbies, I absolutely love playing board games. In fact, I attend a board game club three times a week and have a fairly sizable collection. For anyone familiar (or interested in) hobby board gaming, my personal favorites are Lisboa and Ark Nova. Besides board games, I also play video games, go hiking, and travel whenever I get the opportunity. In fact, I'm writing this post from a hotel room in Portugal. Lastly, I really enjoy reading comics and watching movies or TV shows. I have aphantasia which means I can't visualize anything in my mind's eye, so these mediums are pretty much a necessity for me to appreciate stories. Lastly, to avoid any future dealbreakers, I'll also add that I drink only socially, never smoke, am apolitical and agnostic, and am fully vaccinated.
Okay that might have been more writing about myself than I've done in my whole life. So let's switch topics and talk about you. Firstly, you're very great to have made it this far into my wall of text! Additionally, I definitely prefer people somewhat local to my area, but I'm open to meeting people from anywhere in the US. I'm not picky about physical appearance, but I definitely want someone who either shares or is open to exploring my interests and hobbies. Lastly, my love language is quality time, so I'm interested in someone who wants to hang out together somewhat often.
If you're still reading, please don't hesitate to reach out via DM or chat. If you're struggling to start the conversation (like I was with this post) send over three unique facts about you. I'll even sweeten the pot and reply with pet pictures for each one!

Menopur 75 IU - 2 unopened vials
Pickup near crossroads. DM me if interested

Decided to try something new and talk to someone far away but the more I talk to them the more iffy it gets. When I ask a question about interests they say some vague answer that doesn’t really answer the question in any meaningful way. And when they do it’s just one thing (which I sometimes think is just a made up answer). They seem particularly invested in proving me wrong. There was a topic they brought up that I wasn’t too interested in knowing that it would never actually apply to me but I still went along with it to keep the convo going. So for the research of it I decided to use google maps since if it did apply to me I would have to choose a close option since I only have a bike. The closest by a long shot I found didn’t have a website on the google maps so I called it a day. Turns out they did research on it and it wasn’t even the thing I originally thought it was which they called me out for. I then decided to look at one’s downtown by google maps but they all were like the first and wasn’t what the convo was about. So I made the statement about there being none downtown. To which they said wow it’s crazy there are none in that state. Which I feel like is a strawman or something? I didn’t look at anything for the whole state, literally just one city and one location near me. Wondering if I should bail if this is early traits of being toxic