So I just found this subreddit and have been thinking about my BPD more thanks to a rewatch of Crazy Ex Girlfriend. I was diagnosed in about 2021 following a severe mental breakdown. And while I did end up having some legal troubles thanks to a particularly antagonistic and abusive ex, I haven't really had a lot of issues since getting out from under her thumb.
I'm living with my new girlfriend, talk of marriage is on the way, and everything is great. And that's my problem. It's so great I'm questioning whether or not my shrinks at the mental health hospital got it right.
Because I go down the list right of DSM criteria and I feel like some of them still hold true but, like, they're so minor I don't know if it really constitutes a "disorder". Like I don't really fear people abandoning me, because, like if they do turn out to be jerks then they weren't people I wanted to associate with in the first place. I don't tend to have severely bad interpersonal relationships. Like if I ever stop talking to someone it's usually because of a specific reason and I try talking to them about it first. My identity is pretty rock solid even if I swing between a handful of styles given my mood. My impulsivity is only relegated to begging my partner for a new video game every once in a while and a horrible, crippling addiction to... Energy drinks. And I feel very fulfilled in my life.
The only ones I can even really agree with is my stress related paranoia, difficulty controlling anger, instability in my emotions often swinging from annoyance to hyper glee in about an hour and a half, and my very, very rare SI which only comes on whenever I have a really bad argument with mt GF. Which is like, maybe once every 5 months? Maybe 3?
So, I don't know, is it possible they got it wrong? I mean I wouldn't doubt it considering the quacks there were apart of a devout Christian church, marked me down for "schizophrenic delusions" because I told them I believed in and talked to spirits. Which I also explained that psychologically I know they're a manifestation of my own internal monologue to boost my moral or give me guidance and specified that "they" are my own voice. And these are the same people whom I overheard talking about how they "feel God's presence" and my head psychiatrist kept telling me I should "get a job to feel fulfilled" even though I kept telling him I am with just enjoying the time with my partner and us getting to explore the West Coast. So, you know I take their opinion with a silo of salt.
TL;DR: Some Christian quacks that misgendered me, called me schizophrenic for being spiritual, and told me I need to work a 9-5 Walmart job to feel fulfilled even though me and my partner were driving all over the west coast told me I have BPD and now I'm seriously thinking I don't.

Race Information

• Name: Edinburgh Marathon
• Date: 28/05/2023
• Distance: 26.2 miles
• Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
• Website: https://www.edinburghmarathon.com
• Strava: https://www.strava.com/activities/9156321200
• Time: 2:54:41

Goals

Goal	Description	Completed?
A	Sub 3:10	Yes
B	Sub 3	Yes
B	London qualification 2024	hopefully

Splits

Kilometer	Time
1	4:11
2	4:07
3	3:56
4	4:10
5	3:54
6	4:00
7	4:01
8	4:03
9	4:11
10	4:06
11	4:08
12	4:05
13	4:03
14	4:09
15	4:04
16	4:07
17	4:08
18	4:06
19	4:09
20	4:02
21	4:04
22	4:03
23	4:07
24	4:13
25	4:04
26	4:07
27	4:07
28	4:02
29	4:07
30	4:08
31	4:08
32	4:07
33	4:05
34	4:07
35	4:10
36	4:13
37	4:13
38	4:13
39	4:16
40	4:17
41	4:21
42	4:18
43	3.45

Training

First marathon. Began running in lockdown, seen vast improvements in all my distances, managing to get 5k under 19 mins, 10k under 40 mins, and half marathon under 1:40. I joined a running club in Oct 2022 and seen further improvements in all distances, so I set myself a target of completing a half marathon in under 1:30 and a marathon in under 3.30.
My training consisted on speed work on a Monday (track) and Wednesday (usually in a park or quiet area with no traffic).These sessions are provided by the coaches at my running club. Some examples of the sessions are;
Monday: 5k paced session - 20 x 200m at 5Km Pace/100m Same Time Recovery e.g if 5Km pace is 40s for 200m then 100m recovery is covered in 40s
Wednesday: 10k paced session - 6 x 5 Mins @ 10Km Pace with 2.5 Mins Jog Recovery
Monday: 7 x 800m @ 5Km Pace with 100m in 90s Jog Recovery
Wednesday: 5min, 4min, 3min, 2min, 2min, 3min, 4min, 5min @ 10k pace with half jog rec.
Monday: 10 x 3 Mins/90s Jog Recovery (10k pace)
Wednesday: 8 x 4 Mins @ Half Marathon Pace with 3 Mins Reovery at Easy Run Pace (Not a jog)
Outwith these sessions, I tried to do at least 40km over another 4 runs at an easy pace, keeping heart late below 150bpm. Total monthly kilometres always over 200km. Since the new year I have been trying to hit at least 60km per week.
I booked this marathon last summer and had no idea of a plan or targets. I completed a half marathon in 1.19.59 the end of April this year, and this gave me belief that I would be able to post a good time in this race. I would have been disappointed if I did not manage to complete it in 3.10.
The longest run I completed during my training was an easy run of 33km, about 4 weeks before the race. I was confident I would be able to finish but had no idea how my body would do after that distance at a quicker pace.

Pre-race

I done my last long run (~22km) exactly one week before the race. Easy 10km runs Monday & Tuesday, Wednesday I done 3 x 10km at target marathon pace (4.14/km) with 2 mins rest in between. Another easy run on Thursday and then complete rest Friday & Saturday. On the Wednesday I started upping my carb intake significantly, eating a lot more bread, rice, pancakes, crumpets, scones, tortilla wraps, potatoes and chips. I was feeling rather bloated for these few days so cut back a bit on the Saturday in order to be good for Sunday.
Race day: Got up at 5.30am - big bowl of porridge with a scoop of protein powder, 2 slice of toast & strong coffee. Had a cereal bar and a banana at 8am (2 hours before start). Sipped water through the morning - not too much as was wary of toilet breaks during the race.

Race

Weather on the morning was ideal - good temperature, no wind or rain. Had the potential to heat up later on in the afternoon but overall great running conditions.
Race began at 10am. This was an extremely busy race and had some very narrow points over the first 10km where it was impossible to get by anyone.
The first quarter of the race through the city is all downhill. Great scenery all along closed roads, very enjoyable and a good way to start the race and get warmed up. The streets were packed with spectators and an overall good atmosphere.
KMs 10-30 are where you really need to focus on hitting target pace. The crowds thinned out a bit although there was still locals outside their houses cheering, handing out sweets, playing music, and even a though bands/ dance groups along the way. I always race without earphones in order to take all of this in and it is truly a worthwhile experience. Plenty of water stations along this stretch and the weather was still good. Ran with a few groups during this stretch and chatted away, was lucky enough to move in front of most of them onto the next group.
There is a short gravel section around 28kms around Gosford House. Afterwards I heard a lot of people moaning about this - it certainly is a bit different from running on the road. I suppose it depends on what you are used to, I do a fair bit of trail running as well so felt comfortable. Only thing I would say is the terrain is not suited for the Nike Alphafly.
The last section of the race was by far the most difficult. Temperature had heated up to around ~14 degrees (not roasting, but for us Scots who train all through winter it is on the warmer side). Along with a few gradual inclines on the way back made for some tough kilometres. The number of people I passed on the last stretch who were cramping, being sick or simply walking grew the further I got to the finish line. There also seemed to be less water stations on this section, which is not ideal when you are in the final stages of a marathon.
The final couple of hundred metres was a flat, straight run along mats to the finish line. By far the best part - all the hard work is complete, thousands of spectators and knowing your family and friends are at the finish line waiting to congratulate you. Even better knowing when you know you have smashed every target set!

Nutrition & Strategy

When I signed up for the race I put in a target time of 3.45 - meaning I started in a pen with runners a lot slower than me. This was not ideal as it was very busy and I was stuck behind big groups of runners a lot for the first 20-30mins. I definitely could have went quicker at the beginning, maybe a blessing in disguise as I was still under target pace and perhaps allowed me to not come out the traps too quickly. I took 2 salt tablets every water station, which was every 30 mins or so. Took 1 gel at 10km, 20km then 32km. Fortunately was able to get through the whole race without stopping for the toilet. I was really comfortable up until the last 10km, I had never ran more than this so had no idea how my body would react. I had plenty of time in the bank so I dialled it back a bit to make sure I could finish without cramping or pulling a muscle. My plan before the race was to keep every kilometre below 4.15 and hold on for as long as possible.

Post-race

I am going to take a few days off to let my body recover. I have a few 10k runs booked throughout the summer and hope to achieve some PBs. The time I posted should also qualify me for London next year.
Made with a new race report generator created by herumph.

worked at papa johns a few years ago. didn’t like it. thought dominos would be different. nope, shit management, embarrassing pay, and the constant twats who feel entitled to make someone use their own gas and insurance to bring their fat ass some food. you could feed these assholes by hand and wipe their ass and they will still walk over you. i’m done.
i can make the same amount, probably more, at a walmart without putting any miles on my vehicle. so that’s what i’m gonna do.

Hi guys! I need your help deciding on my career
I (21F) recently graduated from CC with my general eds and transferring to a university this fall, which means I actually have to choose a major now lol.
Right now I’m enrolled in the Applied Technology program w an emphasis in design. I’m also completing an internship with an engineering design firm and it’s actually making me depressed. It’s nothing more than labeling information on the sheets and following established protocols by the state. Not to mention I’m stuck in a cubicle staring at my computer all day and I feel like I’m losing my sanity.
I literally cry after work everyday because my future looks bleak, and I can’t imagine doing this forever. I thought engineering would be cool and I could do more hands on stuff but I was wrong, it’s a bunch of CAD and paperwork. I don’t know what to do anymore. Being in a cubicle sucks too bc I hardly interact with any one all day. I always thought I would enjoy being alone, but it turns out that it gets pretty lonely and the day just drags on.
I know I’m privileged to even have an easy office job, but I feel that humans are not made for this type of work. It’s not even that I hate working, surprisingly my favorite job I’ve had was unloading the trucks at Walmart. I even looked forward to working bc I loved my coworkers & getting a workout.
So I thought about majoring in something health related, like a radiologist tech, pharm tech, a RN, or a dental assistant. Something that actually makes a difference. But I know they don’t make as much money as engineers. And I don’t even know if I’ll like it, so idk if it’ll be a mistake. I’m honestly so lost in life right now bc I realized that engineering is not for me. I genuinely just want to live a simple life, enough to support myself and my hobbies.
I’ve also considered becoming a tattoo artist, I love making art and I’ve done around quite a few tattoos so far. Art is my only passion, but I know that’s a tough lifestyle to pretty much be an independent artist, no retirement plan or 401K. But then again I feel that it would be a waste of my degree to do that.
Are any of you guys happy in your careers? If so pls share what you do, or what you think I would enjoy. My only goal in life tbh is to be happy. Any advice would be appreciated, thank you!

Forward: Welcome to part two. This post will contain recreations of Wehrmacht squads for use on Eastern Front Maps. (Battle of Moscow, Battle of Stalingrad, Battle of Berlin) If you wish to use these on other campaigns go ahead, however I will be next releasing a page for Wehrmacht OKW soon for use on Western Front maps. (Battle of Normandy)
Note: Equipment like grenades and similar won't be included here for sake of not making this post too cluttered. Go and check out the Company of Heroes wiki if you'd like to further tailor these squads. Also as before this won't be a 1:1 but as close as I can manage within reason.
Pioneers:
Basic combat troops which can be used defensively or offensively.

1. Engineer Squad (4x Engineers w/ Kar98k rifles)
2. Flame Trooper Squad (2x Engineers w/ Kar98k rifles and 2x Flame Troopers w/ Kar98k rifles and Flammenwerfer 35s)

Grenadiers:
Core German Infantry

1. Rifleman Squad (3x Riflemen w/ Kar98k rifles, 1x Rifleman w/ Kar98k rifle and Panzerfaust) Note: Can swap out two Kar98k rifles for G43s
2. Rifleman Squad (1x Rifleman w/ Kar98k rifle w/ grenade launcher, 1x Rifleman w/ Kar98k rifle, 1x AT Gunner w/ Kar98k rifle and Panzerfaust, 1x Machine Gunner w/ MG42 MG) Note: Can add 'Veteran Squad Leader' 1x Assaulter w/ STG-44 assault rifle

Osttruppen:
Cheap, numerous infantry squad

1. Rifleman Squad (5x Riflemen w/ Kar98k rifles, 1x AT Gunner w/ Kar98k rifle and Panzerfaust)
2. Rifleman Squad (4x Riflemen w/ Kar98k rifles, 1x AT Gunner w/ Kar98k rifle and Panzerfaust, 1x Machine Gunner w/ MG42 MG)

Note: Due to being composed of soldiers from occupied eastern territories feel free to add some diversity by substituting the Kar98k rifles for rifles from other countries.
Panzergrenadiers:
Elite heavy infantry squad

1. Assault Squad (4x Assaulters w/ STG-44 assault rifles) Note: MP40s can be used instead if you don't have the STG-44 unlocked
2. AT Gunner Squad (2x Assaulters w/ STG-44 assault rifles, 2x AT Gunners w/ G43 rifles and Panzerschrecks) Note: Like with the MP40 above you can substitute the Panzerschreck for the PzB-39 AT rifle)

Artillery Field Officer:
Support unit used to call in artillery strikes.

1. Radio Operator Squad (4x Riflemen w/ Kar98k rifles, 1x Radio Operator w/ Lugar PO8

Note: This is based on the old version of the squad which is used here for balance
Assault Grenadiers:
CQC Squad utilizing submachine guns and grenades

1. Assault Squad (4x Assaulters w/ MP40 SMGs)

Note: For intended use equip them with grenade pouches and extra hand grenades
Stormtroopers:
Elite infiltration troops

1. Rifleman Squad (4x Riflemen w/ Kar98k rifles or 3x Riflemen w/ Kar98k rifles , 1x AT Gunner w/ Panzerschreck) *can swap out three Kar98k rifles for G43 rifles
2. Assault Squad (4x Assaulters w/ MP40 SMGs)

Note: Best use for these guys is a flank heavy playstyle, disrupting enemy flow of battle
Conclusion: Next up will be Wehrmacht OKW for the Western Front followed by the US and UK. Also I'm gonna go back and edit my first post in an effort to standardize. Enjoy.

It’s just starting to get warmer out, and my knee pads are starting to smell like some funky sweat. I can’t be the only one experiencing this. Are you hand washing them / hang drying them? I don’t see any wash instructions on mine.

Hi, /manybaggers!
I’ve been on a quest since February to find an ideal EDC backpack. At first I thought I wanted a totepack convertible option, so I bought the Osprey Daylite Totepack. It’s great, but it didn’t travel well since I couldn’t access the lower part of the bag easily. This led me to start researching full zip/clamshell/top and side access options instead. My issue is that everything is TOO tactical/masculine/rugged for what I’m interested in.
What I’ll be using it for:

• I have two “tech pouches” - one Evergoods 6L and one Peak Design. Depending on whether I have my toddler with me when I’m out, I’ll have one or both with me.
  
• Ideally it would hold my 2018 15” MacBook Pro AND my 11” iPad Pro with Magic Keyboard. Usually just my iPad though, so a tight fit with both would be okay
  
• Ideally it would have two external water bottle pockets. Bottle capacity is negotiable, but I have a toddler and I carry very expensive tech.
  
• I have a Bellroy Sling 7L that I use as a smaller option when I leave the backpack in the car on quicker errands. I keep it in the backpack when I carry it.
  
• If it has a side access option, it would be great if it was symmetrical or offered left hand instead (love that Evergoods has this, but the bag is still too rugged/tactical)
  
• either ergonomic or outdoor-oriented in its strap/back padding design. A chest clip would be AMAZING
  
• 20L minimum, 30ish maximum. I’m 5’4”, so anything more is too much
  
• stands up on its own (negotiable)
  
• luggage pass through (negotiable)
  
• material that easily wipes clean (negotiable)
  
• well-engineered, thoughtful organization (think Peak, Evergoods, Bellroy)
  
• the biggest issue I consistently run into: I’d really like the bag to be minimalist and more aesthetically femme or androgynous. I don’t need or want molles. I don’t want to Velcro patches on it. I don’t want army green, black, dark blue, charcoal, etc. Lighter neutrals or earthy pastels would be so great. I’d like to be able to take it on a short hike or day outing with my kid or show up to a business casual event and have it work all places.
  

Brands I’ve considered: - Dagne Dover (no external water bottle) - Various Bellroys (no external water bottle) - Brevite Jumper - cheap material according to a lot of redditors - Peak Design everyday zip - 15L is too small, it’s too firm/structured - Topo and Cotopaxi - totally my vibe for my outdoors bags, but not for daily carry - Beis The Backpack - possibility, but would like a bit more organization - Lo and Sons - all black options - Aer, Evergoods, Mystery Ranch, Wandrd etc: too tactical/masculine - Kanken & Herschel - too simple in organization, feel kinda basic - Tropicfeel Shell- many reviews of poor quality of bag - Away Far - no external water bottle - Tumi - feels too corporate, many no external water bottle
As you can see, I’ve spent a lot of time trying to find a great pack. Am I wanting/asking too much? What of my list seems like it could sacrificed in the name of finding a good one? Am I being too much of a unibagger when clearly I need to be a many bagger regularly? I’m hoping there’s a few smaller, quality brands that I haven’t found yet. Budget is under $1000, preferably much less.
Any insight would be so appreciated. Thanks in advance!

As the title suggests (as well as my profile lol) I have requested assistance a few times but I've never received any and that is totally okay with me because I know that there were/are others that needed the help more than me and I sincerely pray that those people were able to receive the assistance that they needed.... However, this time I'm a little bit more down than I have been and I'm really hoping for any advice I might be able to receive along with the assistance I'm here praying that someone is able to help with!!
So, I officially lost my job (due to no fault of my own) my place of employment decided to supposedly "temporarily" close while the owner focused all his time and attention on opening a completely different establishment over an hour away from where I live. We all can see that ib war barely managing to make it before when my place of employment was only 10 minutes away from my home so there was simply no possible way I could follow my boss over an hour away to the new location hence leaving me temporarily jobless....
I've done everything short of having a total mental breakdown.... My hometown is extremely small and jobs are almost completely non-existent so finding a replacement job has proved to be just harder than I had already anticipated and it's taken much longer (even with me applying to online/remote job openings)....I am constantly trying, I don't want anyone to think that I've just given up and am here looking for a hand out while doing absolutely nothing to better my situation myself because that simply is not the case.
I am here to ask you kind strangers of reddit for any assistance you are able and willing to offer to me with an open mind and an extremely heavy heart.... Unfortunately I'm about out of everything in the house... Now, I've applied for SNAP benefits and my worker keeps saying that this shouldn't take very long maybe 3 days to be approved and then 3 to 5 business days to receive the card in the mail. So, literally anything that'll hold me over (pack of noodles, bread, lunch meat, ect) just whatever cheap, filling stuff that I can find for cheap to hold me over until this happens would be an extremely huge blessing that I cannot even begin to thank you for!! Next is my gas situation (I would be grateful for a gas card or literally however anyone feels the just comfortable doing it) because I am completely out of gas now and I cannot even attempt to go into the potential job locations without it because the closest onesc area still a good 11 miles from my home which may not seem like much to some people but if you seen these hills and stuff you'd understand I think. Also, I have an interview tomorrow at the local dairy queen (I'm literally ready to accept any job I'm offered) and then on Friday I have two interviews scheduled (one for fruits of labor cafe and the other is for the local florist 🤷‍♀️) Like I mentioned earlier, I'm literally ready to take any position that is offered to keep from going under too far!!
Those are my two main concerns at this moment and I would sincerely appreciate absolutely any help at all. Please, just tell me what I need to do and I would be more than happy to do it in a heartbeat!! I'm not sure what else to do or try but any and all suggestions are welcomed!! I can create a Walmart wish list if needed for some of the needed items as they're cheaper there and I also have cash app if anyone needs this information please do not hesitate to ask!! Willing to answer any questions anyone may have... Everyone please have a blessed day and look out for one another!! Ya never know what others are going through in their own personal lives ❤️

I’ve lived in my car (or out of a tent or a friends couch ) on and off for almost 20 years. Assuming you’re wanting life to get better rapidly you’re not tryna be a hippy, and you’re wanting to stay in America. I will tell you exactly how to get by, and if you do it you’ll be better off, at least financially, and amazons a great way to do it if you don’t have much support, so we’re gonna stick with Amazon route for now.
During winter you work 3rd shift so you don’t freeze, during summer you work day shift. They’ve both got drawbacks.
Power! Buy a solar panel kit from harbor freight or northern tool or amazon, whatever the best deal is at the time. 100-200watts and 35-70wh is all you need (my 110watt panel, 35ah battery, and charge controller with 300watt inverter setup was roughly 200$ total and basically all you need for phone, some light vr gaming, charge your toothbrush and fan whatever) also get a battery jumper box from Walmart, just for something to charge on cloudy days and incase you’ve had to run car for something.
Temp, hot hands and cheap rated sleeping bag in the winter got me thru -25* , and I’m using a small usb fan with heat blocking window curtains and those rain guards on windows to leave them cracked in summer (it’s still unbearable in the afternoon if not in shade, I have an amc movie pass, a library pass, a planet fitness membership, and I wander around book stores or grocery stores or the mall a lot, and in winter you run the car a few minutes every couple hours.) you’ll get window fog, try to keep a window cracked to help with this, moisture is bad and also not very stealthy. Also a front sun shade.
Stealth. Everyone hates the poors now, as I said I have curtains for side windows, which I’ve taped around the edges to keep light from leaking out, stay off phone as far as talking goes, use earbuds, hopefully car doesn’t look too shitty, but never leave trash or laundry built up or around you on the ground. Have a piss bottle you change regularly. I use planet fitness to park, hospitals, camp grounds, truck stops, Walmarts but they’re iffy, paid garages, quiet streets, friends lots, whatever. When working amazon make sure to choose a fc, big parking lots so you’re less noticeable. Stay out of the way, but not too far out of the way. The idea is to blend in. Change parking spots nightly if you can, and also don’t just recycle the same order weekly. Diversify at least the part of the same lot you use. Also remember if you sleep at work, don’t be sitting there for hours before or after that with door open Just hanging out.
Food. I keep some small dry goods with me, you can get cheap camp stoves if you’re staying in the woods a lot, but way easier to use all the apps to get discounts at restaurants. The best $ wise is using amazons fridges and microwaves and free coffee tea etc. just make sure to label and rotate your food appropriately. Always keep water on you, and take a multivitamin.
Health. Sleep flat, with your shoes n socks off, your teeth brushed, after a shower and massage from Planet fitness or a $15 one from truck stop (go in with a book bag on, mention you’re annoyed they cost $ when a truckers in line and they might pay) . Take your multivitamin and drink water. Do your absolute best to sleep fully. Keep your dirty clothes washed regularly and in a bag till then, spray your boots, cars a small space to be smelly. Dog couch spray from dollar store helps. Wash your bedding. Make a bed platform in back to lay down if ya can. Vacuum and wash car when ya can. Wipe down living areas with cleaning wipes. Again small space. Wipe your a pits bs toes etc with baby wipes if you’re sweaty before/after shower. Use amazons insurance to get any necessary vaccines , glasses, mental health services, whatever you need to function. Chronic problems are draining. Try to eat salad kits not just Big Macs. Try to read a book and relax, or have a fun tinder hookup at their place. Stress kills.
$. Amazon has sign on bonuses, I regularly use. 90days from quitting can reapply, first half at 30 second half at 90 or 180 days, this can get you anywhere from 1-5k. They’ve got met. And vet a lot of places. Cross train. Learning, safety, hr, it, loss prevention. But also problem solve, pg, whatever. The more colors on your vest the less real work you do and the more varied work you can do and the more opportunity for advancement. Of course all this is dependent on you being full time blue badge, we’re again committing to an amazon way here. Do Not contribute to 401k, do choose your other benefits wisely. (Also do have your anytime Pay setup incase of emergency, but we’re tryna save, control your spending) only use pto or vacation or upt when sick or emergency. Use all the rewards programs. No load of laundry or gas tank filled without rewards. Maintenance. Keep your tires full and your oil and other fluids good. Use straight talk or mint Mobil with a Walmart phone, sub 50$ a month for phone is our goal, or the gov connectivity programs (free or reduced cost phone or wifi ) Hotels are only for holidays or when you’re sick. You’re wanting money, get it. use career choice…
Plan. So with career choice, pick a job that pays that you can probably do. Cdl, dental hygienist, it, it literally doesn’t matter. Every real job they offer is going to pay enough somewhere for you to afford rent after. Yes amazons going to fuck your schooling schedule accommodations around peak, especially since you’ve made yourself valuable. Deal with it. Career choice kicks in at 90days now. Then the programs take from like two months to 2 years. Pick a program that makes sense long term for your time, $, effort, schedule, ability etc. be realistic with yourself for your capabilities and goals when choosing. (Also 2 years experience makes you eligible to apply to L4 spots at amazon) It’s not one long week, it’s 1.5 years. It’s gonna suck. But you can do it, probably. It’s just really, really, really annoying.
Reality. So don’t waste your time with any other bs programs or excuses. Don’t give up halfway thru for a partner. Pray your presumably garbage car lasts that whole time and your health does also. Love yourself. Clock in five minutes early and late every day if you’re not on 12s, clock out for lunch after your 6th hour if you can choose your own time, do vet whenever if you’re able. You’re going to work 60-80hr weeks for the next 1-2 years (including school time) everything’s gonna seem like way too much, for too little reward, and it’s gonna seem unfair and crazy you make Amazon a million dollars and can barely afford car insurance… and I’m not debating that. But if you stick with it, barring a terrible accident or whatever and acknowledging you’ve got a car to get around (or can make a shelter and bus route or tent and Uber or scooter) work , at the end of the 1-2 years, you’ll be in a job that’s presumably better than a warehouse floor, and 3-6 months after that you’ll have enough $ saved with enough coming in to be a functional lower middle class American. Congrats you broke the poverty cycle.

On a family vacation and had a pouch fall out of my pocket and my older cousin found it and handed it back to me. He told me to quit that shit, as he did 5 months ago and said it was the best decision he made. I have 3 tins on me, gave them to my younger brother as he is a user. Already starting to feel the cravings. Nervous, but excited and hopeful that I can do it. A lot of my good friends are users and I know I'll have to reject a zyn or a vape many times, which may be hard, but part of the process if I want to remain social. I'm picturing myself right now without having any sort of relapse, and having a beer on 4th of July with my dad. That's my goal. I want to try and update the subreddit as I want to kind of treat this post as a confession, update, tips page (any tips would be awesome btw.), and I think it will help keep me honest. I'm going to try and update on day 3, day 5, day 7, and then subsequent weeks following. Tired of these fucking things. Thanks in advance for tips and support.

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Hey KS, still tryna narrow down the collection. Happy to talk discounts for multiple knives. YOLOs prioritized.
Vero Synapse Mini(First run production) - $375 $315 - Natural Micarta - I am the third owner, it has never been cut or carried. Comes with Vero padded pouch and cert card.
Pena Dogleg Jack - $250 - Brown Micarta. Purchased new. Paper test, otherwise mint. Comes with box.
Kizer Mini Sheepdog - $95 - Green Aluminum C01c V3488KFC4 . Bought new from Kizer (MSRP $109). Still has factory edge, mint condition. Comes with Kizer pouch and box.
Modded Squid CRKT - $40 - engraved by a fellow KS'er with awesome squid scene. First owner, never carried, only did paper test - factory edge pretty dull TBH. Never disassembled but applied a little KPL, could probably use a little more to help break in. Comes with original box.
Pioneer Wallet-Muted OD green VX something, can't remember exactly (MSRP $79). Carried three times but ended up going back to my old wallet lol. No sign of wear. Asking $35.
Dupe Apple mag wallet - saddle brown. Purchased online and then realised it was a dupe. Don't want to be wasteful, so would pass this along for the price of shipping -- call it $5.
Patches - free with purchase of Vero or Pena. $10 standalone.
Keyring - free with any purchase! please take this off my hands. New never used.

Name: Sachiko “Sonic” Hakuta
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Sexuality: Bisexual
Birthday: June 23
Quirk: Sonic Speed
Appearance: Sonic is of average height and has an athletic build. She has an olive skin tone, spiky blue hair, piercing green eyes, and a smile that can range from friendly to cocky. For her regular outfit, she wears a beige shirt that has the word “Speed” on it in big bold blue letters, over her beige shirt she wears a cobalt blue bomber jacket that fits perfectly on her and plain white fingerless gloves. For the bottom half of her outfit, she wears soft cobalt blue sweatpants, white socks, and red high-top Nike shoes with white laces and yellow-colored soles.
Personality: Sachiko is a complex and multifaceted individual, with both strengths and weaknesses that make her unique. On one hand, she can come off as a loudmouth, cocky, rebellious, impulsive, petty, and impatient. She's a thrill seeker who enjoys pushing herself to the limits, and she's always up for a challenge.
However, beneath her tough exterior, Sachiko is also a loyal, brave, and heroic individual who will stop at nothing to protect her friends and loved ones. She's quick thinking, introspective, and always willing to learn from her mistakes. She has a kind and compassionate heart, and she genuinely cares about the people around her.
Sachiko is a charismatic individual who can easily win people over with her bold and confident personality. However, her recklessness and impulsive nature can sometimes lead her into dangerous or unpredictable situations. Despite this, she's resourceful and able to come up with innovative solutions to problems, even in high-pressure situations.
Sachiko's carefree and easygoing nature makes her enjoy games, jokes, and other forms of lighthearted fun. At the same time, her perceptiveness and a keen eye for detail allow her to pick up on subtle cues and clues that others might miss. All in all, Sachiko is a dynamic and interesting individual with a lot of potential for growth and development throughout her journey at UA.
Hero outfit: Sachiko's hero outfit is a combination of practicality and flashiness, designed to help her channel her Sonic-inspired powers to the fullest. Her outfit is primarily composed of sleek blue and white armor, with red accents that match her high-top Nike shoes.
To help her move at superspeed, Sachiko's shoes are customized with special materials that can withstand the intense friction and heat generated by her powers. They are fitted with white, silver, and red accents that give them a futuristic look, and they have a specialized sole that helps her maintain her grip on any surface.
Her hi-tech glasses are designed to protect her eyes from debris and wind resistance, which can be hazardous at high speeds. The lenses are made of durable and scratch-resistant materials, and they have a sleek silver frame that complements her armor.
Sachiko's energy supplements are compact and easy to carry, providing her with the boost she needs to run longer and faster. They are contained in a small pouch attached to her waistband, with the pouch designed to blend seamlessly with her armor.
Overall, Sachiko's hero outfit is designed to be both functional and eye-catching, with a nod to her Sonic-inspired powers. It's a perfect representation of her personality and abilities, allowing her to tackle any challenge that comes her way with style and confidence.
Quirk: Sachiko's quirk is called Sonic Speed, and it allows her to move at superhuman velocities that far exceed those of any other person. She can run, jump, and move at a speed that makes her seem like a blur to the naked eye, with agility and reflexes that match her speed.
At her maximum speed, Sachiko can move at an incredible Mach 3, which is roughly 2,300 miles per hour. This allows her to run across vast distances in seconds, dodge attacks with ease, and deliver incredibly powerful blows to her enemies.
However, such incredible speed comes with its drawbacks. Sachiko's body generates an immense amount of heat when she moves at high speeds, which can cause her to overheat and become exhausted if she exerts herself too much.
Additionally, her powers make her less effective in close combat, as her high speed can make it difficult for her to maintain her balance and land blows accurately.
Despite these drawbacks, Sachiko's Sonic Speed has many creative applications. She can use her speed to create sonic booms that disorient and damage her enemies, run up walls and across ceilings, and even create cyclones with her movements. Also, she can run on walls and across water, and can even use her momentum to generate powerful kicks and punches.
Sachiko is aware of the untapped potential of her quirk, and she holds back on purpose during battles to make them more challenging and interesting. She enjoys pushing herself to the limit and exploring new ways to use her powers creatively. She is always looking for new ways to improve her abilities and become an even better hero.
In short, Sachiko's Sonic Speed quirk is a powerful and versatile ability that allows her to move at incredible speeds and perform amazing feats of agility and strength. With practice and training, she has the potential to unlock even more untapped potential, and she is always striving to become a stronger, more effective hero.
Background: Sachiko was born into a family of superheroes. Her parents were both well-known heroes, with her mother possessing the power of flight and her father possessing super strength. Growing up, Sachiko was constantly surrounded by talk of heroism and the responsibilities that came with having a quirk. Despite their high expectations for her, Sachiko struggled to find her place in the world of heroism. Her parents' shadow loomed over her, and she felt that she would never be able to measure up to their legacy.
However, everything changed for Sachiko when she discovered her love for speed. She realized that her quirk, Sonic Speed, was not just a tool for transportation but could also be used to save lives and fight crime. She started practicing with her speed, pushing herself to see just how fast she could go. Her parents were initially hesitant about her new passion, fearing for her safety, but they eventually came around when they saw the determination in her eyes.
Sachiko enrolled at UA High School to hone her skills and become the hero she always knew she could be. She quickly became known as the fastest student in Class 1-A, impressing her peers and teachers alike with her speed and quick thinking. However, Sachiko held back in battles, preferring to make her fights last longer and be more challenging. She knew that if she went all-out, her fights would be over too quickly, and she didn't want to disappoint anyone. She was always looking for ways to improve and to find new ways to use her quirk.
Despite the pressure of her parents' legacy and the expectations placed on her as a hero, Sachiko remained true to herself. She was independent, creative, and always willing to help those in need. She knew that being a hero wasn't just about having a powerful quirk but also about having a strong moral compass and a desire to make the world a better place. Sachiko was determined to use her quirk to do just that.
Strengths:

1. Superspeed: Sachiko's quirk, Sonic Speed, is incredibly powerful and allows her to move at lightning-fast speeds. This makes her an excellent asset in battles and allows her to quickly come to the aid of those in need.
2. Quick thinking: Sachiko's superspeed requires her to be quick on her feet both physically and mentally. She is able to think and react quickly, making her a formidable opponent in battles.
3. Courageous: Sachiko has a strong sense of justice and a desire to protect those around her. She is not afraid to put herself in harm's way if it means saving others.
4. Loyal: Sachiko values her friendships and relationships deeply. She is fiercely loyal to those she cares about and will go to great lengths to protect them.
5. Creativity: Sachiko is always looking for new ways to use her quirk and find solutions to problems. She is a creative thinker and is not afraid to try out new approaches.
6. Independent: Sachiko is confident in her abilities and does not rely on others to get things done. She is self-sufficient and can handle challenges on her own.
7. Adaptable: Sachiko is able to adjust quickly to changing circumstances and can think on her feet. She is not thrown off by unexpected challenges and can adapt to new situations easily.

Weaknesses:

1. Overconfidence: Sachiko's cocky and impulsive nature can sometimes make her overestimate her abilities. This can lead her to make careless mistakes or underestimate her opponents.
2. Impatience: Sachiko's desire to be constantly moving can sometimes lead to impatience and a lack of focus. This can be a weakness in battles where strategy and patience are necessary.
3. Stamina: Sachiko's quirk, Sonic Speed, requires a lot of physical energy and can quickly tire her out. If she uses her quirk too much, she can become fatigued and less effective in battles.
4. Vulnerability: Sachiko's superspeed makes her vulnerable to attacks that can catch her off guard. If her opponents can slow her down or find ways to trap her, she can be at a disadvantage.
5. Dependence on her quirk: Sachiko's reliance on her quirk can sometimes lead her to neglect other aspects of her training. This can make her less effective in battles where she can't rely solely on her speed.
6. Emotional impulsiveness: Sachiko's emotions can sometimes get the best of her, leading her to act impulsively or recklessly. This can make her unpredictable in battles and lead her to make risky decisions.
7. Stubbornness: Sachiko's determination and independence can sometimes make her stubborn. She can be resistant to new ideas or approaches, which can limit her potential for growth and development.

Hobbies:
Running: As someone with superhuman speed, Sachiko loves to run and challenge herself to go faster and farther. Whether it's for exercise or just for fun, Sachiko enjoys pushing her limits and seeing just how fast she can go.
Music: Sachiko has a love for music, and can often be found listening to her favorite bands or playing her guitar. Music is a way for her to relax and unwind after a long day, or to get pumped up and ready for battles.
Gaming: Sachiko is a big fan of video games and enjoys exploring virtual worlds, especially those that are fast-paced and action-packed. She also enjoys playing games with her friends and family.
Exploring: Sachiko's adventurous spirit leads her to enjoy exploring new places, both in her local neighborhood and on school trips. She loves to discover new sights, sounds, and experiences.
Martial Arts: Given Sachiko's desire to become a hero, she has also taken up martial arts training to help improve her combat skills. She enjoys learning new techniques and mastering different forms of martial arts.
Fashion: Sachiko has a keen eye for fashion and enjoys creating unique outfits to wear, both in her daily life and as a hero. She likes to experiment with different colors, patterns, and styles and takes pride in her appearance.
Eating: Sachiko's high metabolism from her quirk means she enjoys eating a lot and trying new foods. She loves to sample different cuisines and flavors and is always up for a food challenge.
Skateboarding: Sachiko is also an avid skateboarder, enjoying the feeling of cruising around on her board and performing cool tricks and stunts. Skateboarding gives her an additional mode of transportation outside of running and provides a fun and exciting way to stay active and challenge herself.
Family: Sachiko's family has a long history of heroism and is known throughout the hero community for their bravery and dedication to protecting others. Her parents are both retired heroes, and her older brother, Toshiro, is currently a pro hero. They are a close-knit family who value each other's opinions and support one another.
Sachiko's mother, Akira, was known as "The Sky Guardian" during her hero days. She possessed the ability to fly at incredible speeds and was instrumental in rescuing civilians during natural disasters. Despite her mother's impressive powers, Akira was always kind and nurturing towards her daughter, encouraging her to follow her own path and not feel pressured to live up to her parent's expectations.
Sachiko's father, Hiroshi, was known as "The Colossus" and was one of the strongest heroes of his time. He possessed immense strength and durability, making him a formidable opponent in battles. He was also known for his kindness and humility, often putting others before himself.
Sachiko's older brother, Toshiro, is a pro hero known as "Thunderbolt." He possesses the ability to control electricity and uses it to subdue villains and protect civilians. Despite being an accomplished hero, Toshiro is supportive of his younger sister and encourages her to follow her own path.
Overall, Sachiko's family is a loving and supportive one, with a strong tradition of heroism that has inspired Sachiko to become the hero she is today.
Sachiko’s Class 1A friends: Sachiko's friendship with her Class 1A friends is important to her, as they are the first group of peers she has ever had who understand the challenges of being a hero. She feels comfortable around them and enjoys spending time with them both in and out of class.
With Deku, Sachiko enjoys discussing different hero techniques and strategies. She is always impressed by his analytical mind and his determination to become a great hero, and she often encourages him to keep pushing himself.
Uraraka is one of Sachiko's closest friends in Class 1A. They share a love of food and often go out to try new restaurants and cafes together. Sachiko also admires Uraraka's fighting spirit and her ability to find creative ways to use her quirk.
Todoroki and Sachiko share a mutual respect for each other's power and fighting skills. They often spar together to hone their abilities and push each other to be better heroes.
Jirou and Sachiko bond over their shared love of music, often sharing playlists and discussing different bands and genres. They also have a friendly competition going on to see who can come up with the best hero theme song.
Kaminari is one of Sachiko's closest friends in Class 1A, and they often goof around and joke with each other. Sachiko enjoys Kaminari's lighthearted nature and his ability to make her laugh.
Kirishima and Sachiko share a love of physical training and often work out together to improve their strength and endurance. Sachiko also appreciates Kirishima's unwavering loyalty to his friends and his dedication to becoming a great hero.
Ashido and Sachiko bond over their shared love of fashion and often exchange tips and ideas for creating unique hero costumes. Sachiko also admires Ashido's courage and determination, and they often train together to improve their combat skills.
Sero is someone Sachiko enjoys sparring with, as she appreciates his creativity and resourcefulness in battle. They often trade tips and tricks for using their quirks to gain the upper hand in combat.
Asui and Sachiko share a love of exploring and often go on adventures together in their free time. Sachiko also admires Asui's level-headedness and her ability to remain calm in high-pressure situations.

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Want to start off by saying I am the original owner of both of these. They both will come with the box, coa, pouch etc. no trades pls.
We Exciton- black titanium w/ blue accents, black stonewashed dual ground 20cv blade. Carbon fiber backspacer. This we sold out pretty fast and I can see why. It seriously has some of the best button lock action I’ve ever experienced. Carried lightly, never sharpened or disassembled. $325 shipped.
We Merata - This one is fully decked out in the “flamed tiger stripe” ano (titanium). It looks very cool. And the hand satin 20cv completes the look. Has phenomenal action and lockup. Lightly carried, never sharpened or disassembled. Asking $280 shipped.
will accept reasonable offers

Idk why but I keep thinking you’re supposed to add a powder or something to it. Though my box only came with a hand warmer and bottle, so I guess not. Just trying to calm nerves lol

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